Note to myself.

一切都變得好醜陋

我發誓
我一定要變得更好
我一定要變更漂亮

因為這世界就是那麼膚淺

Please don’t

Don’t tell me I’m perfect, caz if so why no one loves me.


Don’t tell me someone will love me, caz no one does and you’re fucking one of them who don’t.


Don’t tell me I deserve better, I know I do but I never get what I deserve.





And it’s my fault,


it really is all my own fault


to put my trust on someone.


And it’s my fault,


for wanting more from you.










Stop twisting my mind,


perhaps you're unaware of that ability you have,


but please


stop


now.

十句

第一句

沒有一百分的另一半　只有五十分的兩個人



第二句

付出真心　才會得到真心　卻也可能傷得徹底
保持距離　就能保護自己　卻也註定永遠寂寞



第三句

通常願意留下來跟你爭吵的人　才是真正愛你的人



第四句

有時候　不是對方不在乎你　而是你把對方看得太重



第五句

冷漠　有時候並不是無情　只是一種避免被傷害的工具



第六句

如果我們之間有1000步的距離　你只要跨出第1步
我就會朝你的方向走其餘的999步



第七句

為你的難過而快樂的　是敵人
為你的快樂而快樂的　是朋友
為你的難過而難過的　就是那些　該放進心裡的人


第八句

就算是believe　中間也藏了一個lie



第九句

真正的好朋友　並不是在一起就有聊不完的話題
而是在一起　就算不說話　也不會感到尷尬



第十句

朋友就是看透你了　還能喜歡你的人

So...what now?

You're such an ugly thing for someone for beautiful.


Do you ever get that fear that you can't shift the type that sticks around like something in your teeth?
Are there some aces up your sleeve?
Have you no idea that you're in deep?
I've dreamt about you nearly every night this week.
How many secrets can you keep?
'Cause there's this tune I found that makes me think of you somehow and I play it on repeat
Until I fall asleep


Do I wanna know?
If this feeling flows both ways
Sad to see you go
Was sorta hoping that you'd stay
Baby we both know
That the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can't say tomorrow day.

I don't know how am i suppose to act in front of you.

Why the hell i can't just run away from you?

What is wrong with me.

Skype

Skype with mummy today, it was just another ordinary sunday a time when we share our thoughts.

Seems like I like to cry in front of my mum every once in a while haha...

but damn that really helps, talking to her and crying like a baby

I so so needed that

to stop me going insane by all the pressure I gave to myself.

Seriously if you ask me who is that one person I can't live without,

it would definitely be my mum.

I can live without friends

I can live without a man

I can live without all the other people but HER.

God, please let her live healthily for another 50 years at least

so that I can die at the same time as her.



Ah...I'm such a baby, but I'm always a kid in front of mummy though lol

男人和女人

我還未完全跟母親坦白


今天跟她聊了很久

她說起她的愛情觀

希望我未來能找個什麼樣的人

要如何對我好


女人嘛

說到底還是要結婚

要有自己的家庭

最重要有孩子

那才算完整


男人呢

要有責任心

厚實的胸膛去當女人的靠山

最緊要有上進心

愛你遷就你

不能婆婆媽媽



我聽著聽著

覺得很有道理

她希望我可以結婚生子

幸福快樂

那理所當然的是每個母親都盼望的事情

她們希望自己的子女能過的比自己好

所要求的也就相對的高


我又開始慌了

又開始想多了

想著

我現在所喜歡的男人

是否能給予我未來

我們能夠堅持多久呢？

哈哈

或許現在想有點太早了

但其實時間不多

我的青春快要消耗完了

雖然我才剛踏入我的20初

但總覺得人生苦短

想太多是好事還是壞事？


以我的觀點

作為一個女人

當然能早結婚是好的

每個人都想要一段白頭到老的婚姻

但那麼早就結婚

誰能保證在自己身邊的那個人是對的？

確實，

我們不能保證結了婚就不會離

畢竟這世上有太多誘惑

太多東西能影響人心


起碼

起碼也要在有機會的時候好好把握

製造美好的回憶

一生人

怎麼樣起碼也要狠狠的愛另一個人

那才算是真正活過

無論是家人，朋友，還是愛人


人之所以有煩惱

就是因為所索取的越來越多

慾望是無止境的

知足常樂

那真是一句真言

人啊

就是想太多才活得那麼辛苦

無奈的是

你若不想的透徹

到頭來也是會受到別人的傷害


唉

真是矛盾



善哉善哉

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